Happiness at 80% should be the title of this post. People always ask us if we're going to stay married. It's been a long journey to discover the answer to that question. For now... the answer is, 'YES we are going to stay married.'
The next question people ask is, "how can you be married to a woman if you are gay?"
I've had to start explaining it this way. To this point in my life, I feel 80% complete (maybe it's higher but you get my point). I feel happy 80% of the time because I get to be with my kids and a WONDERFUL woman who is fun, pretty, compassionate, tolerant, loyal, drama free and loves me unconditionally. She helps me feel happy, I love her, and we treat each other great (most of the time)!
So, how can I stay married if she does not complete me? The answer... BECAUSE I WANT TO! What other reason can I give, other than, I love my wife? The majority of the time, I feel FANTASTIC, complete, and happy. Its just a small percent of the time that I feel drawn toward something different.
In the end, I have accepted that I will probably not have the connection with a man that I want because I am choosing to stay married to a woman and an open relationship is not an option for us. In exchange for that... I get my family and I'm okay with that.
Next post: 'What about your poor wife?'
Some of you might be saying, 'What about Laura?' Doesn't she have a right to happiness and a man loving her for who she is? You will have to wait until our next post to find the answer to that.