I've had to start explaining it this way. To this point in my life, I feel 80% complete (maybe it's higher but you get my point). I feel happy 80% of the time because I get to be with my kids and a WONDERFUL woman who is fun, pretty, compassionate, tolerant, loyal, drama free and loves me unconditionally. She helps me feel happy, I love her, and we treat each other great (most of the time)!
So, how can I stay married if she does not complete me? The answer... BECAUSE I WANT TO! What other reason can I give, other than, I love my wife? The majority of the time, I feel FANTASTIC, complete, and happy. Its just a small percent of the time that I feel drawn toward something different.
In the end, I have accepted that I will probably not have the connection with a man that I want because I am choosing to stay married to a woman and an open relationship is not an option for us. In exchange for that... I get my family and I'm okay with that.
Next post: 'What about your poor wife?'
Some of you might be saying, 'What about Laura?' Doesn't she have a right to happiness and a man loving her for who she is? You will have to wait until our next post to find the answer to that.