We got married in our church and started our new life together. We lived in Grand Junction, CO in a crappy one bedroom apartment while I worked in the oil field. Life was great but there was just one problem... I was still gay.
I'm not entirely sure why I'm doing this. I think its because I'm sick and tired of pretending to be somebody I'm not. I've kept my true self a secret for so long that I'm not really sure who 'my true self' is. I'm hoping that through journaling (blogging) I can better get to know myself and what exactly I want out of life. Maybe something I say can help you if you are in a similar situation. Or at least find comfort in knowing, you are not alone.